Only to tell her, I don't hate her, but I can't forget and find apologizes about the childhood I used to live.
I don't know if she'd answer, she's very proud, and she has never tried in 4 years to contact me.
I felt it was important to say that things changed, and that I'm more calm than before about my childhood and in my life.
About this subject I know Geoffrey likes Alice Miller's books, he should try to find Boris Cyrulnik's books, which are very interesting about trauma, and children.
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
I just wrote my mother
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Monday, April 28, 2008
I have ordered this dress two months ago
And I'm alway expecting it; I have received the shoes, who looks very nice, and Michelle, I have walked with the black dress, yes it's a sexy dress :0x.
It's raining today, but it's not raining men, I feel tired and angry .
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Friday, April 25, 2008
I haven't posted for few days
I have an explanation, first, I felt again really sad because of Thaïs death, and even Clint cannot replace her.
But I had strange calls on my cell, with a private number, for a work people show their number, and as I have no friends around, I suspect it's my pervert father who got the number...
On my yahoo email, I don't use often, I received a mail like my name was my mother name.I know he's trying to manipulate me, and he doesn't want to leave me alone, trying to live without my parents.
I haven't been a good pal online and I'm sorry for that.
Above all, I don't meet again my therapist, she didn't help me, and my physiotherapist was right, telling me to not try to find a good therapist, I can work alone more quickly.
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Tuesday, April 22, 2008
I have tried Facebook some months ago, but I have deleted my account, after few days, and one of my pals asked me to suscribe again, I did it, and I have recovered a old friend of mine.
I'm so happy because he's very interesting, pleasant, clever, and I have missed him too much.
Facebook is amazing, because you can recover persons you have lost for years. Better than Google !
Where are my buddies from here ? I see only Terence who visits my blog regulary .... Hmmmm
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Saturday, April 19, 2008
Men who are looking for fun
I suscribed to an English site, because I wanna meet some English men, just look at the comment I have received on March ...How a beautiful and young man like this one (which is not my kind of guy) can leave this comment to me ?
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Thursday, April 17, 2008
I don't know why yet
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Those pictures show a bus stop with "a fraise Tagada", lost , a piece of candy, lost under the bench.
At home we love sleeping, Laurent took the first picture of me.
I took this one in a rent car.
but I can't find a normal job in an office. On morning I had an interview, I went there but I couldn't find the office, by 2 times it happened this month, I really feel the fate doesn't want to see me working for 1200€/ month in a boring job.
I took some pictures today ... let's go...
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Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Friday, April 11, 2008
I have received this message about the wet cat 's picture
I
I respect his identity, but sincerely that's the best comment on my picture, wanna see this one ?
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It's raining again
I slept alone tonight, because Clint ignored me all day long and I felt angry and sad, I slept on the sofa, and he stays with Laurent, on morning it was raining again and again, I like hiking but not when it's raining.
I cleaned Clint, in the bathroom, he was scared, but now he's sleeping on the sofa, and his reactions make me think of Thaïs.
Oh I forgot to say that my bunny Tranxene, who were pregnant has a baby called Vallium ;) he was born on March 27. The other one was dead when I have heard about the babies.
In few days he will open his eyes, I will make a video.
I'll look on afternoon on my old pictures because I want to add these pictures in my flick album's.
And I have ordered my summer shoes online :
I have choosen the brown ones. But I'm frustrated because I wanted these ones :
That's life I have fragile legs ....
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Thursday, April 10, 2008
I had to return in my past life today
On morning, We had to search a parcel which was in a store, but not in the city's center. And we had to hike a long street for getting this parcel, and fate who helps me to put an end to all my bad story, drove me to these remembers. I used to hike this street when I was a student, at university, because I was a baby sitter, and I cared about 2 kids in a catholic family, they haven't TV, and they played music all day long. I had to drive the boy to the swimming pool, waiting and waiting, they didn't pay me too much, and when I leaved University I was so happy to tell them I couldn't work for them anymore. I dislike catholic's family, because they think they are the best ones, they are always right, and their kids are very arrogant.
My face was red hiking on this street, but I felt proud to get my parcel with "Summer of 42" and "Straw Dogs" DVD inside.
I send you 2 pictures of a man, who looks like my wrong fucking father, Peter Pan syndrom's touchs a lot of men in France and it's ridiculous.
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Wednesday, April 9, 2008
Show me yours, I'll show you mine. ;)
I was recently tagged by the lovely and friendly The Mrs.
Show me yours, I'll show you mine, mine is picture I took on 2005 there isn't too much icons on my screen I like space !
Anyway, I'd like to pass on this tag to the following wonderful people and friends:
Franscud
Hisa
Elaine
Terence
Alloanouar
So okay.. I've shown you mine, now show me yours! :) Just make a post on your blog with a screenshot of your desktop, then pass this along to five of your blog-buddies.
Naturally, you don't have to participate if you wish not to.. but it is a bit fun and interesting to see what everyone's desktop looks like. Yes, I'm nosy. Get over it. : P
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Monday, April 7, 2008
Sunday, April 6, 2008
Second week end without my princess
Yesterday I felt despressed until the afternoon, today too I felt despressed on morning, but now I feel better.I only talk to one person on msn, I don't need more.
I'll make cute pic on afternoon, on spring, I love photographing flowers and insects.
I haven't heard from Miles for 2 weeks, he did love Thaïs, and I'm sure he'll be sad hearing she's died.
I haven't heard too about Michelle, I hope she does feel ok.
Chloe has a new life, she can go out and walk her dog, I'm happy, because I have learnt to appreciate her reading her blog.
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Friday, April 4, 2008
Bad Friday
On morning I had an interview with a tourism company, I felt glad, and I went there, but I didn't find the good explanations to find the company and I lost 3 hours of my day. I tried to call them, but they didn't respond, then I came back home.I did forget my contact lens and I was lost there it's a part of my town, and people there don't really know where we can find a specific place.
I have an headache. I feel tired, because when Thaïs was ill, I felt there was something wrong and I made nightmares all night longs.
Clint was happy to see me, but not Laurent, he doesn't sleep well too, last night, I woke up to 2:00 am and I cleaned because Clint made bad things on the floor around our bed.
I was disgusted. He walks by 6 or 9 times outside but he doesn't stop to piss (above all when we don't look a him).
Beside that, cleaning the floor and cleaning again the floor, sucks to much. I feel Clint feels no secure and he needs some meds to be more calm. Well, C'est la vie.
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Thursday, April 3, 2008
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
The vet told me today
while I was paying his bill, that my Thaïs is on the freezer with other dead dogs, in a bag, and he forgot her collar, I want to get back it because it's a lovely collar, and she was so happy to wear this one.
But I couldn't accept, he told everything of the operation, that she had in the stomach a lot of water, et cetera.
He's bad, and I don't want to drive Clint there, Clint was sad, because he loves me already and I was crying coming back home.
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Tuesday, April 1, 2008
Not any dog can replace Tate
The mixed
The Argentin Mastiff
But I'm looking for another dog, a puppy.
In france it depends of your place, if you live in Paris direction prices are less expensive, but on South, they'd sell you a mongrel 800€ just because his mother gets the LOF.
And without a car it's more difficult, in bus they doesn't accept dog (even a puppy). We have a meeting on 8:00pm for an Argentin Mastiff, but we don't know if it would be ok, just because people want more than the price they propose. The price is 400€.
Yesterday it was a mixed labrador and a black dog with long fur female puppy .The price is 150€ but not identity yet.
I have cried so much these last days, I hope I'll laugh as soon as possible.
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