Wednesday, April 30, 2008

I just wrote my mother


Only to tell her, I don't hate her, but I can't forget and find apologizes about the childhood I used to live.
I don't know if she'd answer, she's very proud, and she has never tried in 4 years to contact me.
I felt it was important to say that things changed, and that I'm more calm than before about my childhood and in my life.

About this subject I know Geoffrey likes Alice Miller's books, he should try to find Boris Cyrulnik's books, which are very interesting about trauma, and children.

Monday, April 28, 2008

I have ordered this dress two months ago


And I'm alway expecting it; I have received the shoes, who looks very nice, and Michelle, I have walked with the black dress, yes it's a sexy dress :0x.
It's raining today, but it's not raining men, I feel tired and angry .

Friday, April 25, 2008

I haven't posted for few days


I have an explanation, first, I felt again really sad because of Thaïs death, and even Clint cannot replace her.
But I had strange calls on my cell, with a private number, for a work people show their number, and as I have no friends around, I suspect it's my pervert father who got the number...
On my yahoo email, I don't use often, I received a mail like my name was my mother name.I know he's trying to manipulate me, and he doesn't want to leave me alone, trying to live without my parents.

I haven't been a good pal online and I'm sorry for that.
Above all, I don't meet again my therapist, she didn't help me, and my physiotherapist was right, telling me to not try to find a good therapist, I can work alone more quickly.

Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Facebook

I have tried Facebook some months ago, but I have deleted my account, after few days, and one of my pals asked me to suscribe again, I did it, and I have recovered a old friend of mine.
I'm so happy because he's very interesting, pleasant, clever, and I have missed him too much.
Facebook is amazing, because you can recover persons you have lost for years. Better than Google !
Where are my buddies from here ? I see only Terence who visits my blog regulary .... Hmmmm

Saturday, April 19, 2008

Gallery of insects in a store




I took these pictures, in a store, but I couldn't photograph dead butterflies.

Men who are looking for fun





I suscribed to an English site, because I wanna meet some English men, just look at the comment I have received on March ...How a beautiful and young man like this one (which is not my kind of guy) can leave this comment to me ?

Love that Kissing Touching Caressing Licking your thing... If I really like you maybe more... I want you now... If that is your thing, I am very open and willing to serve you as my mistress and superior as I at times have the tendency to be very submissive, with the right type of person... I feel that you are that person I would seriously LOVE to talk to you and get to know you... Even if you are not for it, then that is not a problem and I would still LOVE to chat you or be your f

Thursday, April 17, 2008

I don't know why yet

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Those pictures show a bus stop with "a fraise Tagada", lost , a piece of candy, lost under the bench.



At home we love sleeping, Laurent took the first picture of me.

I took this one in a rent car.



but I can't find a normal job in an office. On morning I had an interview, I went there but I couldn't find the office, by 2 times it happened this month, I really feel the fate doesn't want to see me working for 1200€/ month in a boring job.
I took some pictures today ... let's go...

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

The Bunny and her mom



His name is Valium he looks like her mother . Too funny !

Friday, April 11, 2008

I have received this message about the wet cat 's picture

Dear Fran
The photo of the wet white cat that you have on flickr has left me with such an impression I have now placed it as a background on the computer screen.
This is a remarkable photo, not the usual humdrum "pretty" type. It is a depiction of not only the cat, but of purpose. It reflects to a small degree who you are, or should I say, what you feel.
The not so obvious detail that you have captured is impressive, such as the rotting door painted a fresh blue. The dead Dandelion on the step.... these add to the dejected appearance of the cat but also bring excitement to the overall photo.
May I suggest that you take this photo, enlarge it and submit it into a competition of some sort. It would also serve as well on canvas if it were painted in oils.
Keep up the good work and forget the usual rubbish that we see on flickr.
Regards,
I

I respect his identity, but sincerely that's the best comment on my picture, wanna see this one ?

It's raining again

I slept alone tonight, because Clint ignored me all day long and I felt angry and sad, I slept on the sofa, and he stays with Laurent, on morning it was raining again and again, I like hiking but not when it's raining.
I cleaned Clint, in the bathroom, he was scared, but now he's sleeping on the sofa, and his reactions make me think of Thaïs.
Oh I forgot to say that my bunny Tranxene, who were pregnant has a baby called Vallium ;) he was born on March 27. The other one was dead when I have heard about the babies.
In few days he will open his eyes, I will make a video.
I'll look on afternoon on my old pictures because I want to add these pictures in my flick album's.
And I have ordered my summer shoes online :
I have choosen the brown ones. But I'm frustrated because I wanted these ones :
That's life I have fragile legs ....

Thursday, April 10, 2008

I had to return in my past life today



On morning, We had to search a parcel which was in a store, but not in the city's center. And we had to hike a long street for getting this parcel, and fate who helps me to put an end to all my bad story, drove me to these remembers. I used to hike this street when I was a student, at university, because I was a baby sitter, and I cared about 2 kids in a catholic family, they haven't TV, and they played music all day long. I had to drive the boy to the swimming pool, waiting and waiting, they didn't pay me too much, and when I leaved University I was so happy to tell them I couldn't work for them anymore. I dislike catholic's family, because they think they are the best ones, they are always right, and their kids are very arrogant.
My face was red hiking on this street, but I felt proud to get my parcel with "Summer of 42" and "Straw Dogs" DVD inside.
I send you 2 pictures of a man, who looks like my wrong fucking father, Peter Pan syndrom's touchs a lot of men in France and it's ridiculous.

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

Show me yours, I'll show you mine. ;)

I was recently tagged by the lovely and friendly The Mrs.
Show me yours, I'll show you mine, mine is picture I took on 2005 there isn't too much icons on my screen I like space !
Anyway, I'd like to pass on this tag to the following wonderful people and friends:
Franscud

Hisa

Elaine

Terence

Alloanouar

So okay.. I've shown you mine, now show me yours! :) Just make a post on your blog with a screenshot of your desktop, then pass this along to five of your blog-buddies.

Naturally, you don't have to participate if you wish not to.. but it is a bit fun and interesting to see what everyone's desktop looks like. Yes, I'm nosy. Get over it. : P


Monday, April 7, 2008

Clint is an artist




He changes my mind I love him !

Sunday, April 6, 2008

Second week end without my princess

Yesterday I felt despressed until the afternoon, today too I felt despressed on morning, but now I feel better.I only talk to one person on msn, I don't need more.
I'll make cute pic on afternoon, on spring, I love photographing flowers and insects.
I haven't heard from Miles for 2 weeks, he did love Thaïs, and I'm sure he'll be sad hearing she's died.
I haven't heard too about Michelle, I hope she does feel ok.
Chloe has a new life, she can go out and walk her dog, I'm happy, because I have learnt to appreciate her reading her blog.

Friday, April 4, 2008

Bad Friday

On morning I had an interview with a tourism company, I felt glad, and I went there, but I didn't find the good explanations to find the company and I lost 3 hours of my day. I tried to call them, but they didn't respond, then I came back home.I did forget my contact lens and I was lost there it's a part of my town, and people there don't really know where we can find a specific place.
I have an headache. I feel tired, because when Thaïs was ill, I felt there was something wrong and I made nightmares all night longs.
Clint was happy to see me, but not Laurent, he doesn't sleep well too, last night, I woke up to 2:00 am and I cleaned because Clint made bad things on the floor around our bed.
I was disgusted. He walks by 6 or 9 times outside but he doesn't stop to piss (above all when we don't look a him).
Beside that, cleaning the floor and cleaning again the floor, sucks to much. I feel Clint feels no secure and he needs some meds to be more calm. Well, C'est la vie.

Thursday, April 3, 2008

Clint is a crazy puppy


Wednesday, April 2, 2008

The vet told me today

while I was paying his bill, that my Thaïs is on the freezer with other dead dogs, in a bag, and he forgot her collar, I want to get back it because it's a lovely collar, and she was so happy to wear this one.
But I couldn't accept, he told everything of the operation, that she had in the stomach a lot of water, et cetera.
He's bad, and I don't want to drive Clint there, Clint was sad, because he loves me already and I was crying coming back home.

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

Clint the new one


There we are :

Not any dog can replace Tate

The mixed

The Argentin Mastiff

But I'm looking for another dog, a puppy.
In france it depends of your place, if you live in Paris direction prices are less expensive, but on South, they'd sell you a mongrel 800€ just because his mother gets the LOF.
And without a car it's more difficult, in bus they doesn't accept dog (even a puppy). We have a meeting on 8:00pm for an Argentin Mastiff, but we don't know if it would be ok, just because people want more than the price they propose. The price is 400€.
Yesterday it was a mixed labrador and a black dog with long fur female puppy .The price is 150€ but not identity yet.
I have cried so much these last days, I hope I'll laugh as soon as possible.